22 Feb 2008

Waiting and waiting and waiting...

I hate waiting. Doesn't matter what it's for; buses, subways, people, I just hate waiting for things to happen. Like this new job that hopefully I have. I'm waiting to hear if I do in fact have a new job. And the waiting is killing me.

Being a Sagittarius, I am not used to having to rely on others for anything. And that includes waiting to hear about a job I really want. Not knowing when I want to know is a really difficult thing for me to swallow. I reckon it's why my husband and I are having such a hard time right now. He is completely loving the fact that I have to rely on him for everything right now because I am not working. If I need money for something, I have to ask him for it and he gets to decide whether or not he'll give it to me. I have never been in this position before and I've gotta say, it really sucks.

I contacted the strip club I used to tend bar at to see if I could pick up a couple of shifts. I didn't tell D I was doing it; hopefully it won't cause too much of a hassle. I just can't keep waiting around to see if something is going to happen. I'm going crazy sitting here waiting for an opportunity to present itself. Time to take the bull by the horns.