So NaNoWriMo started this morning and I am pretty proud of myself. Not only did I actually get up when my alarm went off at 5:30 this morning, I sat myself down and wrote. For me, I have already won. I have been saying for the longest time that I was going to get up early and write and I never have because I like sleep. It's my friend.
I did something else that is different this year: I wrote an actual proper outline. I wrote a back story, developed characters, ideas, and themes, and know how the story ends. All in all, a much better start.
While I didn't meet the word count this morning, I am not going to stress myself out over it. I will either write more tonight or do a bit extra tomorrow morning. I am happy with what I've written so far and my characters are realistically flawed.
When I compare where I am right now with where I was last year, I am blown away by the difference. I am in such a great place with people around me who love me, and I am grateful for the support I have received during the past year. I have learned to make hard decisions, learned how to let go of things that are hindering my happiness, and am working towards forgiving those who have hurt me.
In keeping with these lessons learned, I have quit my current job that is not fulfilling me and have taken another that will. I am taking responsibility for my own happiness and rejecting the notion that I do not deserve it.
My hair has also made an interesting transition: last year I was lightening my jet-black hair in order to try and infuse myself with light. It took many steps and lots of money and in the end, I have decided to return to black. I always do. I don't consider the journey to be a waste; I have learned much and will continue to do so.
With awesome hair.
